What do you mean? In Denial? Me? Hmmm...

I wonder, since I do so well ignoring my MS, am I in denial about my illness?

I have always had the propensity to simply ignore things that I don't like or don't agree with, or don't want to hear. On the other hand, if there is something pleasing about the situation I will shake it to a pulp, I won't stop talking about it or will adapt whatever it is as my own.

I am loyal to the nth degree to things and people who mean something to me, alright, who mean a lot to me. Some of my friendships, okay one, goes back over fifty years. Even though that person has now met his maker, I still find myself being loyal, painfully so.

Now, on the other hand,there is my illness. There is no need to embrace, ignoring is good. It is distasteful, to say the least, and I manage to tuck it into a corner. It is not constantly on my mind. Thank the Lord for small favors. I deal with my symptoms on a daily basis, but somehow I don't necessarily label them as "MS". I guess that is a good thing. It is a form of denial, or survival depending on one's point of view.
Of course this could all be just plain bunk or rationalization..... whatever....